In January I posted about letting go, it has been a real
struggle to do that. I didn't want to
give up if it was in the Lord's plan for my husband and I to have more
children, but I was trying to let go of it being in my hands. Baby things are expensive, and I have managed
to get to the point I'm willing to give away our baby things if I felt it was
the right thing to do.
Ever since C4--Princess Ballerina's birth I have felt that
we had two more children that needed to join our home. Her brother, C5-aka Trainboy, is one of those
children. I've been wondering if our two
little babies I saw heartbeat and movement were the reason I still feel our
family is incomplete.
I've been feeling like I am in limbo. I've been trying to patiently wait the for
the answer to my prayers regarding the size of our family. Very recently it came.
It is a very personal story, and I don't want to go into too
much detail, but I do want to share some things. I have been praying for help in being patient
for the Lord's answers regarding our family.
I have been trying to make more opportunities to hear the whispers or
promptings of the Holy Spirit--that divine guidance I believe we can all hear
if we try.
The answer I got was that I had done enough for our family
and I could move on. I should focus on
my family as it is now and do all I can for them. I wept with gratitude when my answer
came. It's not the answer I was hoping
for, but I know it is the right answer.
I feel at peace.
Not long after getting this answer I learned of some people
who could really use some baby items. I
am happy I could help in whatever small way I can.
My heart stills yearns for another baby, but I trust in the
Lord. I trust that if I can align my
will to his I will be better for it.
I am grateful the Lord answers prayers and for His infinite
wisdom.
If you are struggling with putting your trust in the Lord, if you've gotten an answer you don't want, I
encourage you to just do it--just trust. Our Heavenly Father knows you and what you need. I know this. I know that there is
peace, comfort, and safety in the arms of the Lord.
May you have a wonderful day and know that you are loved.
